clever little giants

Those "giants" being internet corporations such as Nordstrom and/or any other web retailer that try and trick you with free shipping ploys... Because as the darkness is my witness (I tried to hide my dirty habit with the lights off), it gets you every time! When you only want to buy a pair of shoes and hopefully it isn't the full required amount you have to spend before you are allowed the luxury of not having to pay to get your goods shipped to your house, then you realize you have to buy more than you originally were planning!

Ugh. Good thing my mom's birthday is coming up (as is Father's Day, but he never ever wants anything. And I mean, he gets a teensy bit grumpy if you spend money on him...), or I would've never gotten out of the spidery web that is online shopping... Late at night.

We'll see if those precious booties I spent so much time strategizing for will work out. I hope they do but I secretly hope they don't bc even though they are wonderful, they are also out of my budget. Even on a killer slashed $ scale. I have yet to find a pair of Pour La Victoire heels in my size, though, which makes it all so irresistible!

i think...

i may have a shopping "habit." and there's always an urge to browse online late at night, which leads to more spending (which i kind of forget about till later the next day). hmmm...

also, editor's note: what the heck??? i didn't remember writing that last entry post, but then again i do bc it all rings true. guess that's what happens when i browse online too late at night, have had a long day and am exhausted. case and point.

preface: i am grateful to have a job but...

I NEED A REAL JOB!
I AM TIRED OF RETAIL!
I HAVE A DEGREE IN CRIMINOLOGY, LAW & SOCIETY!
SOMEBODY, HELP A GIRL OUT!
WHAT CAN I DO WITH THIS THING?

it's who (or what) you know... right?

i'm torn between staying in this industry (somewhere above the ground floor) because i can be who i am (sassy) without being stuffed into a stuffy little cube but that stuffy little cube could mean financial stability... i have never known what to do, what i can do or what my options are because criminology is such a vast land of opportunity. and i have never been good at deciding when there are too many options. or are there few options? in which case, someone throw a 9-5 at me, and i'll take it. bc working whenever, wherever is getting tiresome, and i would like to be reacquainted with weekends...

i need to have a sit-down with a working professional. tips, pointers; i don't care what you do but i need to know how you came to land the job you have now, or the jobs you have had in the past bc chances are, you have not worked as many retail jobs as i have and i need to find a way out of this cycle! okay, i've had two jobs which is including the one i am at now bc i am far too loyal and get far too comfortable too easily to just break free and jump from place to place. a good quality to have , maybe. not so good experience-wise.

holy crap it is almost the one-year anniversary of my college graduation... i think i might have an anxiety breakdown all over again.